Whoomp! There it is!

 Forgive me if there is some meaning to that lyric I don't understand. I have led a sheltered life. 

Yesterday I had another interview. Yes, I interview a lot. I think I look okay on paper, but my conversational/speaking/interview skills are not so strong. I am better at writing. I am also in my early 50s which may be an issue. Or maybe I am the looks good on paper interview to show they are serious and searching wide and far before they higher the young new graduate. Who knows? It was fine. It was for math, because as you know since I agreed to change from math to FACS at my current school, I have been hurting. 

I am trying to process the whole thing-decision making has always been agony for me. The thing is, I am at a great school. But lI am lonely. And as a FACS teacher, I will have no department, no grade level team, an extra teaching period (only one plan time), and I worry so much about isolation. I get lonely. Liam insists I am a shy extrovert and that's why I am struggling so much, but either way, I went to Hickory to make friends and have failed. It sucks. What the freak is wrong with me. I probably brag too much. I am so afraid of annoying people I probably hide in my room too much. Either way, it is sucky. Or maybe I am really am boring and need to just deal with it. Maybe being more isolated is a blessing ...to those around me.. hahaha, I kid. I just got an uber call. I'll be Bock.